I have come under attack from various people who were once very close to me. The one thing they seem to have in common is this belief that they know God's will for me better than I do...maybe even better than God Himself.
They all are of the opinion that I should not be on this journey. One person told me "God is not pleased by your walk." Another person asked me if I "even like my children." She was upset that I abandoned my 3 children to go on my walk. My children are 29, 25 and 24 years of age. They are adults who lead lives of their own. They are not young children.
Now in fairness, I did in fact abandon them when they were young. I moved away from them to Denver with my new wife in 2003 11 years ago.
I had not forgiven myself for this and other sins I committed which I believe was a subconscious reason or partial reason why I embarked on this trip in the first place. And, I had just gotten to the point where I could in fact forgive myself.
Now after this last week I am struggling mightily with the whole concept again.
That's life. 2 steps forward and one backward.
Pray for me. Thank you.
BR: Be firm in your faith. If in your heart, you know this is God's will for you, then continue the path regardless of the comments of family, friends, and strangers (including me). Remember you have an enemy (we all do) and if you are doing something that will bring your heart closer to God (and hopefully will lead others closer to God), you will (not may) come under attack. I am not saying this is the case here. But, your enemy can use others to do his work for him (even while they believe they are doing good to you). So, if I may offer some unsolicited advice; when you pray command (I mean command!) in the name of Jesus and His authority to silence all other voices so you can hear Him clearly as to what your next step should be. There is a reason that Jesus often left early in the morning to pray before the distractions of the world came at Him. If He felt is was important, all of us need to follow His lead. Have a great Thanksgiving! Best Regards,
ReplyDeleteWow! Michael your comment is so full of grace and wisdom. I have read your comment more times than I can remember! You are indeed a great friend and no stranger! I will do as you say. I am firmly resolved now and your refreshing comment has helped immeasurably! Have a great Thanksgiving and give my heartfelt greetings to that beautiful family of yours!!!
ReplyDeleteGreat to hear that you seem more at peace with your decision! It sounds like you had great Thanksgiving. Best Regards,
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